Not amused

It was so good to visit Wat Rampoeng and to see all the people there. Ajahn asked me why I am here (Wat Rampoeng) and when I told him I am on vacation and checking out whether I could go to Khnun Pang, he was not amused. He does think that I should stay there and bear all the evil, face the bullies, and get through. I don’t think that I can do it. It is difficult enough not to get angry or at least, if it does arise, not to react on it. It may be selfcentered but presently I feel like I don’t ever want anything to do with nuns.